Thank you for taking the time to read my description
This is my second account on Xtube. I originally started doing this to help with my depression and so far it"s worked pretty well which is why I keep coming back.
I"ve been physically, mentally and sexually *****d throughout my short life. The sexual ***** I suffered doesn"t bother me too much, it hasn"t had a negative affect on how I turned out I don"t think. All the physical and mental ***** is what really brought me down. At 16 I started hating myself which lead to cutting myself and became an addict. There wouldn"t be a day that went by that I didn"t tear into my flesh. This went on for about a year and slowed down to only every once in a while. I still like to do it when I"m really depressed. I don"t cut for the *****, I cut for the *****. In my mind, the more I *****, the more my ***** goes away. I would break apart cheap razors because the blades were so thin and sharp, I eventually stepped up to surgical scalpels which is what I still use today. I"ve never done any sort of ***** or anything thankfully.
Xtube has done a lot for me; whenever I feel depressed, like I"m completely worthless, all of you come to my aid and help me back on me feet. People tell me all the time that I"m an inspiration for turning from cutting and learning to love myself as a human but in reality, if it wasn"t for each of you, I"d still be that depressed guy who hates himself, cutting for attention. I love and thank you all for that.
Alright some fun facts: My birthday is March 31. I"m from Florida, but currently staying in California with some ***** for a bit. I play a ***** ton of video games; Final Fantasy, Goblin Commander, Kingdom Hearts, Wow. I"m a *****! lol I love spending time at the gym. I"m a freak for Taekwondo although I can"t afford it unfortunately. I am usually an optimistic person.