dear OSLO

'It's not the years in your life. It's the life in your years.' I am as naked as a newborn *****. I have nothing. Nothing but love. However that love fits me like the perfect suit. I don't know whether I'm getting paranoid, or there's really everyone looking at us... Probably it's my outfit (love-suit). And definitely their jealousy. All these common people. It's pulp! Going to work, driving back to that place called home. Having left ...

dear AMSTERDAM

Luckily you find internet in the whole wide world! My laptop is a real gateway to society right now... Here in Amsterdam all the houses are cock-eyed. Distorted as is our life right now. I like that similarity. We are heading to the ocean nearby here. Fall is coming, it's not that easy to stay outside anymore. But no matter what, we stick together. Yes, we are dirty - but in LOVE! Julian and Adam   By the way: Weed is legal here ...

dear WORLD

For people who don't know me yet, I'll try to explain my situation. Where am I right now? Well, finally I showed Adam all my secret internet-letters I wrote during the past year to get my feelings and cravings out somehow. He also saw my videos, which I gave the world to understand my love in order someone would eventually support me. I wanted my love to be seen, which wasn't possible in real life, so I found my new society here on xtube. It's strange for...