INTACTIVIST & SUFFERING WITH DYSMORPHIA
The ugly truth: I'm just an ordinary guy with a lot on his mind, if you really want to know what they are, are full of obsessions of insecurities and woe. I am dysmorphic, trying to learn to love his body, but have many many insecurities of his own. I have mental anxiety, which impedes me from living my life. I am extremely flawed, and tend to focus on them most, I am known to be a petulant ranter too.
A forewarning, I'm really insecure mostly about my penis, as it is circumcised, now, I'm not saying that circumcised dicks aren't any better, it has nothing to do with that, it's just something that I have really come to regret after a doctor performed a penile surgery on me for no given reason, but to "enhance the looks" and keep it "healthier", and "cleaner". The day I got circumcised, was absolutely the most painful, and I realised how unnecessary it was, truly. I don't understand why doctors have to perform it so much, I think it's just their phobia that it'd give out widespread illnesses or such, or blind tradition, the man is circumcised, therefore must be the next one in line. It makes absolutely no sense at all to me. To all of us, there has always been two kinds of penises, circumcised ones, and uncircumcised ones. Now, why can't we just leave it to nature, she's the one who had given us that endowment. We are all given that, there's no such thing really of someone who was born circumcised, already, it had to be done by another human being. I don't expect you to believe my notion, but then again, whatever happened to the, it's more about his personality, than merely by the way his penis looks, if it really makes people "disgusted", I have seen so much silly stigma on something that is absolutely normal, natural, it's not a defect, people. There may be underlying conditions, but I believe they can be resolved, without removing an integral part of his penis. Most importantly, it should be left for him to decide for himself, because I can tell you guaranteed, that most circumcisions are done without his part in it, if it hadn't been that way, the numbers probably would've been much lower, because people had a decision. I've never heard of anything bad happening to someone because he didn't get circumcised, that is silly, but I do have heard of malicious intent from people, who try to coerce and harass others to doing a surgery that really doesn't need happening. And I know circumcision is painful, therefore it should be done early on, it's for his own good, but how come other men don't have to get it done and are living normally free lives.
I remember getting circumcised, and as much as I didn't like it, I told myself that there must have been a good reason for them, I have failed to see any of those to this day. It's more of a religious, societal, cultural thing, this circumcision, and probably just a bunch of nuts who think that being intact, excuse me on my act of saying uncircumcised, as that concept had not always been here. It lacks results, and doesn't do any good, just tamper with something that nature has given to us. I believe completely in restoration, and I think it can actually be done, if you choose not to, then people, don't judge them, because it wasn't their part in it, it was somebody else that was out of their control, in fact, it's like a contraption of dominoes, or rumors, it just spreads like wildfire, and this is why this surgery is still being subject to blind tradition. People don't realise that what they're doing, is just a waste of money, and time. I'm in no way judging anyone for it, but I don't want to see it being done anymore, because it really sickens me on the inside. There is no correlation between good health, and circumcision, anyone can get sick still, anything can still happen to that person. I believe that one day, like it had already been seen in females, that male circumcision is not important, is irrelevant. Females have also gotten depressed, insecure for their circumcisions, and this is how I feel, and I'm sure there are a couple handful out there. I'm trying to say this without misconstruing anything. It should not be done, I wish this surgery could just somehow end, and I wish I can magically poof it back to every single man out there. I can really see this ending, and again, restoration should not be intimidating for you all, I think it will really bring out some good results, and there is a lot of knowledge on the subject nowadays. Even modern science is looking at ways unforeseen to humanity that can actually recreate it, even getting around ways that impose ethical questions. I think a penis looks beautiful natural, it looks beautiful both ways, but if it's already beautiful, don't do anything to change that beauty. At least, don't perform a surgery on mindless innocents that don't know anything at all about what's happening, except getting thrown into this world, and feeling firsthand the worldly pains of being outside. As for me, when I had done the surgery, I knew very little about it, except think that every man was circumcised, and that every man will go through that, that's what happened when misinformation and our failures to speak up. There could be another one out there, getting an unnecessary surgery soon, and it's still being done, is what sickens me. This is extremely controversial, I know, it's absolutely hard to broach about it, in everyday conversation, or mention about it. Please all have a good day, and be happy, nice people. I'm probably going to get criticized about this, judged even, but I don't care, I have to stick up for my beliefs, I don't want to be that same boy, who was scared of getting his thoughts across people, afraid of being ridiculed, laughed at, picked at, patronized, etc.
Thank you for reading this, I appreciate your concerns and attentions.
I love men, there is something erotic and nice about a man's body, his rump, his front knob, the facial features that distinguishes his face, his many diverse mannerisms. There is especially this strong connection I see when two men are having sex, it's inexplicably something that comes off as nature's wonder. I'm still virginal, so while I have seen so many things, and try to learn about them, I have not experienced them myself.
I appreciate all of your lovely comments, as they are very kind and involving complimenting, thank you so much.
I will accept any criticisms, inquiries, and comments. Please so do, feedback is very much encouraged. Don't be shy. Share your personal stories, insights, compliments, I really don't care, any kind of human interaction will do.
I have started writing a chronicle of my battle through dysmorphia, and my feelings and thoughts on what happened then. You can check it out on my blogs.
Men, did I say men, oh yes, MEN, MEN, MEN! Gimme, gimme!
Nothing turns me on like a man penetrating you from behind as his hands are placed and rubbing you all over your sensitive spots, (waist, thighs, nipples, back, you name it!) *-*
WATCHING OTHERS HAVE SEX
I am also a major voyeur and I like the thought of watching people make love without me involved. I love seeing a man bring pleasure to his mate, and ultimately bringing them both to orgasm, and a submissive partner who wants to satisfy his or hers. And what'll even drive me wild is if it happens before my senses in real time and place, witnessing nature take its course, hearing them moan and grunt while they're at it too. I also would like that they do it wholeheartedly and not because of being impelled to do so by force or at the behest of the other partner. Apart from the carnal mechanism and physicality of sex, I like imagining what they must feel mentally and emotionally, with the knowledge that the other is all-in to that person, willing to give their body, to make sure that person is pleasured.
I go crazy when people kiss.. whether it be nibbling tenderly or eating each other out impulsively (well, so to speak lol)
Love conquers all, no?
Oh how I would love to have my foreskin back.. I got mine removed three months shy of turning 14 and it was the biggest mistake ever… now every time I masturbate I have short mild orgasms and not intense as before.. but I don't care about anyone if cut or uncut.
Dirty, BDSM equipment (doesn't make sense to me, lol), Sadism, Masochism, Discrimination is always intolerable
I'm a non-smoker
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