Xtube, the gatekeeper to the humid dungeon of my sexual thoughts where I can shed my public facade and explore myself, find myself, and define that which runs through my head when I"m alone. The click of a key; no longer forced to pace like a leopard; free to explore the moans and chains echoing down the dim halls of this secret world; my darker conscience.
Shall I be pleasured by the seduction of foreign eyes peering in, watching me, or us, together? Shimmering sweat slithering across my smooth body in the heat resonating off the strangely cold, stone walls. The sugary fears of unknown hands caressing me whilst I am taken dissolve in the warm water of air. Or do I s=desire the intoxicating high of leaving my cell knowing others too, are free?
I am an Aquarian; we are attracting, exhibitionist, inventive, intellectual, contrary, perverse, unpredictable, detached, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of our character under a cloak of frivolity. We may leave the world to nourish our need to be loners. But once we find a man worthy, desirable, we sweat a most hypnotic and irresistible attraction and we connect with the one who completes us.
To my strangers, I hope you taste the depth my bed offers. I thank you for your comments. If you must lay hidden beyond the fires licking flames, breathe deep and surrender to your hands perversion; pleasure what makes you a man.
Read the section below on My Ideal Partner.
I am slave to opposites. At 5"9" @ 130lbs I lust for men physically able to dominate me. Knowing a man is capable of doing what he wants and not being strong enough to stop him is a really intense high. I like to feel some meat on a man"s bones. It gives me something to hold on to when he mounts me, hunting up inside me to feed his masculine needs and release in its warmth. The mix of skin color feeds a longing in my eyes; staring taboo law in the eyes while I make him thank creation for making him a male as my mouth sends convulsions through his flesh.
Physically, I love lips, shoulders, chests, strong arms and legs, a beefy ass and some meat on his bones. It"s hot to get a man like that underneath an upsode-down open bottle of heated baby oil and let that shit stream all over us as he grinds all that man-physique all over me.
I find breath play an aphrodisiac; It pulls me deeper into the scene, the moment, into him and it enables a man better access to my depths without fight. It allows me to hear my own heart beating inside my thoughts. I fucking love hearing a man talk dirty to me. It brings out the animal; my lips part to egg him on while he uses my soft flesh to feel it warmly sliding across his thick dick.
Mirrors: reflecting carnal desires in candle light. I like to watch myself being fucked, see a man"s muscles flex in the flickering glow. They allow me a POV of my body being taken and explored; seeing my muscle become broken in and massage his black meat, him disappearing past its wet folds.
Missionary, it"s the position where a man"s most dominant over me... his weight upon me with his lips so provokingly close. The rush is intense. I like being on back in general actually... love looking up at a man. Don"t twist it, I love riding dick. It"s hot for a bottom to get to fuck himself with a man while the tops just enjoys the sensations and view. I like to send my hips up to bat; sliding his head in and out of my warm hungry ass, hips writhing in disarming circles, then that long continuous wet slide down until the base of a man"s dick can feel the heat most intensely. I love to face a man while he sits back on the sofa, his face right in front of my chest; my nipples are the gateway to getting what he wants; his hands free to push the buttons. My ace of spades is riding him in reverse. I will fucking break a man down; the mechanics work to my advantage.
I love getting between a man"s muscular thighs and using my mouth on him. The endless combinations of lips, tongue, pressure, throat, breath, fingers and hand enable me to sing aria or create an orchestra on his meat. I am a ball man, love those fuckers. You can break a man down to a moaning mess through his balls and that all-so-sensitive flesh around them and his inner thighs. It works wonders on me!
MISC. 420, poppers, masturbation, porn (love solo videos, straight, interracial, contrast of age and body size, gloryhole), sex toys, incense, DM or Day Din during sex...
I can hang with some hair on a man"s chest and stomach. Feeling it against my back is so fucking hot. His hairy belly being between my smooth thighs drives me wild... it just enhances the arousal of fucking a man.
I am enormously provoked being kissed. IT IS MY SINGLE BIGGEST TURN-ON! There is something so personal and incredibly intimate about it. For "me", it breaks down barriers, increases my heart beat. The feeling of having my mouth eaten alive makes me feel desired; wanted; possessed.
I have a penchant for red light. It conjures up the feeling of a raw, humid, dim leather bar with it"s thrustingly seductive rhythm. It adds an illegal and forbidden feel to the room. The idea of a man taking my body to make his feel pleasure has always been connected to rawness, surrendering my boundaries to his hands and carnal wants.
Candles â it"s light used in the dungeons from our history books and erotic stories... I love being in the flickering tease of candle light. It takes me somewhere between Basic Instinct and a stone room in Interview With a Vampire. Skin looks so delicious in the warmth of its delicate long flickering licks.
I have an attraction to a big dick. I don"t mean to seem ugly about it... but seeing a big dick... knowing where he wants to put it and what he wants to do with it... is just dirty and fucking hot. It is such an incredible rush feeling it burn its way slowly into my tight soft flesh, my back arching, my hands grabbing onto his shoulders, chest and back... and feeling it get fucked to a warm hole of gushy wet skin wrapping around and slobbering on it. It feels SOOOOO FUCKING GOOD when he has loosened me up to the point where when he grinds it slowly and deep inside me... I can feel the hair of his crotch trying to get in.
MY HOT SPOTS would be my lips, nipples, balls, stomach and inner thighs. It is simple, but the effect is explosive. When a top masters that, then my journeys becomes ours.
And one more... in a man, I need honesty. If we are to be one and I am to be allowed to complete you, you need to tell me what you like or just lead me and let me follow you there. I should never find out years down the road you live a double life (CKM)... let me be part of that journey with you!
Bad hygiene(CKM), selfishness, deceit(CKM), inexplicable ignorance, disrespect(CKM), dishonesty (including lies by omission(CKM), low moral character (CKM), and well, if I can kick your ass, it just can"t happen! But, CKM was able to do that, weren"t you, CKM?
I like realistic horror. Something based upon twisted morals, mental illness, soulful corruption, sadistic instinct: Silence Of The Lambs, Saw, etc.
The presence of evil, where ghost slaves reach into the living world and unleash their wrath or reach out to us to get our attention: Exorcist, The Haunting, Sixth Sense, etc.
Steamy movies built upon simple chemistry and the war of intelligence: 9 1/2 weeks, Fatal Attraction, Basic Instinct, etc.
Comedy: Margaret Cho, Lewis Black, Ron White, Wanda Sykes, Sandra Bernhard, Deon Cole, Lavell Crawford, Ellen DeGeneres, Jim Gaffigan, Adele Givens, Judy Gold, Kathy Griffin, Corey Holcomb, Ken Jeong, Loni Love, Mo"Nique, Brian Posehn, Sommore, Sheryl Underwood, Katt Williams, Robin mutha fuckin Williams and Gina Yashere.
420: Death Becomes Her, She Devil.
Television: Uggggghhh, my favorite shit was removed: Desperate Housewives, Brothers and Sisters, Sex and the City, S@!T My Dad Says, Boston Legal, Harry"s Law, Chase, Grey"s Anatomy, Star Trek; New Generation, SYTYCD, National Geographic, Animal Planet and True TV.
Seriously? This is a site about sex.
Evanescence, Depeche Mode, The Cure, Annie Lennox, Madonna, Erasure, Allison Moyet, Imogen Heap, Enigma, Kristine W, music found in NYC leather bars, 80"s freestyle, jungle, dance, R&B, female power singers, Stevie Nicks, The Eagles, George Michael, Classic Rock and Alternative.
True crime, science and erotic novels.
Clever, Dry/Sarcastic, Slapstick
I'm a light social smoker
I rarely drink
About my Partner
Look beyond your dick and understand a bottoms" psyche; we are deep sexual beings. Beyond the pig-facade so many commercially erect, we are wired between the planes of the sexes. You are INSIDE our bodies, something deeper moves for us than you, our spirits are engaged. You show me a bottom that prefers to just drop and go and I will show you a fucking liar. They sold out to meet the simple rules of the "tops" world. Does it not query your mind why you get the "Yeah man" response? Why skip through the puddles like a boy, when you can dive into the ocean and swim, a man? For those of you who just said "Man, fuck you"... the exit is easy to find. For those of you who are like, "what"... read this and process this next thing:
Do you want a guy who is a slut for anyone or do you want a guy that will be a slut for you?
Learn a bottom"s body. Where are his triggers? His lips? Ears? The nape of his neck? His nipples? Having a warm tongue gently rake across his balls and inner thighs? Feeling a man hold his hips or squeezing the insides of his thighs? His toes? Your hands holding his waist or rubbing on his stomach? Perhaps you holding him down or against a wall while you actually, dare I say it, kiss him? Bottoms body"s are physically built like yours. They too, have anatomy that raptures having a wet hand on it. Give the effort to engage his emotional needs or fetishes. You may be surprised just how responsive he is when he is actually, aroused.
There is more to him than his dick. Sure it is what we long for, but it is your job to map him out and learn his likes. The biggest error we make is challenging his authority and damaging his ego. We have to be more clever in getting what we want. You have to get him to agree with you without ever letting him know it was your thought to start with.
That dick... the lust in your eyes... as simple as it looks, it is designed for sex. His head is where he is most sensitive to a long, slow touch. Just past the head begins a region that is incredibly responsive to delicate touch or the caress of your tongue. Rub the sides of it and he will respond the same way if lips were stroking him with a woman... it is evolution. Further down, these sensations begin to pick up another receptor, heat. The reason a man likes to grind it in is because the heat inside your body stimulate these nerves around the base of that delicious piece of meat. If it hurts, then learn to control your hips so you can lengthen your canal. Besides, focus on something delicious like having his balls pressed against the soft skin of your ass. If he likes dirty talk, then baby, take him to the truck-stop.
If you don"t do these things for your partner, someone wiser or more sexually connected down the street most certainly will at some point. It"s ugly, but it is true.
Beyond this, you have to learn what makes him moan, what makes his toes curl, makes his legs tense, his back arch, his back sink back into the bed, what gives the most erotic visual, what is it that sexually makes him feel like a man, what does his ears like to hear... the rules change with his mood. It is our job to master his triggers and our arsenal. Few of us are jacking off desiring a wimpy guy to crawl up on top of us... so embrace what it is that makes him the aggressive, assertive being you want and need him to be, and seduce his body, mind and soul.
Whole package matters more
Does size matter?
As long as it's thick I'm happy
I dont mind if my partner smokes lightly
I dont mind if my partner drinks lightly
5 ft 9 in
Shaved or waxed to be neat
Glasses or Contacts
Entertainment, Sports and Hobbies
Arts/Museums, Fashion, Gardening/Landscaping, Movies (making), Movies (watching), Music/Concerts, Nightclubs/Dancing, Painting, Photography, Playing cards, Shopping, Travel/Sightseeing
Comics/Anime, Computer games, Dancing, Live music/Music, Movies/Film, Nightclubs/Parties, T.V./Videos/DVDs, Theater/Arts
Arts & Entertainment, Documentary/Learning, Dramas, Stand Up Comedy
Action, Adventure, Comedy, Crime, Drama, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Porn, Romance, Science Fiction, Thrillers
Alternative Rock, Blues, Broadway & Vocalists, Christian & Gospel, Classic Rock, Country, Dance & DJ, Electronic/Techno/House, Industrial, Jazz, Pop/Top 40, R&B/Soul, Punk, Rock 'n Roll
Erotica, Horror, Mystery, Non Fiction, Romance, Science/Technology, Thrillers
Work & Living Environment
American, Cajun, Chinese, Fast food, French, Greek, Italian, Mexican, Persian, Pizza, Seafood
Favorite sexual fantasy
I don"t really feel I can say I have fantasies. There are things that have not crossed my path yet, but I do not have any regrets. I feel like saying I have fantasies is to say I have not been satisfied or a man doesn"t satisfy me. As long as a man is hard before I have even touched him, I know it"s going to be fun. Every time is different... I just believe in letting chemistry guide you through and following its heat.
I'll try most anything once
Age Play, Blindfolds, Butt Play, Crossdressing, Dominance/Discipline, Exhibitionism, Fisting, Gangbangs, Glory Holes, Group Sex, Giving Anal Sex, Giving Oral Sex, Handcuffs/Shackles, Leather, Making Movies, Massage, Mutual Masturbation, Piss Play, Public sex, Receiving Anal Sex, Receiving Oral Sex, Role Playing, Sadomasochism, Strap-Ons, Threesomes, Toys
Evenings, Late Night
Sex, How often?
3-5 times a week
Most Erogenous zones?
Belly, Ears, Inner thigh, Lips, Neck, Nipples
Police/Civilian, Priest/Confessionalist, Prostitute/Client, Sergeant/Ensign, Stranger/stranger, I'm not into role playing
A dark back alley, A movie theatre, A moving vehicle, In the nature, A swimming pool/hot tub, My bed, My yard, The beach, Under a waterfall
Dirty talk during sex?
Sometimes I really get into it
Making home videos/pics
I AM a pornstar!
Bars or pubs, Night clubs, Adult theatres, Dungeon clubs, Raves
Butt plugs/probes, Cock ring, Dildos/Vibrators, Penis extensions, Strap-ons, Swings, Vaginas, Vibrating eggs/bullets
Food for play
Frosting, Ice cream, Strawberries, Whipped cream
Blindfolds, Cock and Ball Toys, Collar and leash, Handcuffs/shackles, Harnesses, Masks, Nipple clamps, Silk scarves
Porn Movies, Which?
Amateur, Anal, Bisexual, Cumshots, Interracial, Fetish, Gay, Hard
Porn Movies, With?
By myself, With a partner
Porn Movies, How often?
All the time!