Thinking of Taking a Break/ If You've Written to Me
...Thinking of taking a break. Not that I've been on all that much. It's been on my mind for a bit, though. It feels weird to have photos exist of me online without my drawers on. I'm a pretty reserved sort of person. I like to be in clothes, very very much. Also, as I've said before, sometimes I get bummed when I stop by here and stay too long. I start feeling quite single, unbearably single. My favorite part about this site, though, is getting that male fix without having to actually deal with the man attached to the body. Now that sounds extremely fucked up, but that's how I feel right now. I'm still not over being aroused by the male form with those entertaining danglers of theirs. So unfortunately, I need the dangler fix. My dealings in real life have just been so disappointing that I don't want to waste anymore energy on it for awhile. Guys in video/photo form are generally easy to deal with. But they can't hug you or make you laugh because they're busy jerking off (in my video choices) and/or they don't have heads, so that's where the sadness creeps in.
Okay, and let me say this: I'm sorry, but I'll usually say 'no' to Skype requests. Mainly because I don't want to be on webcam. I feel really uncomfortable and awkward in front of them, even clothed. Another thing is that I have this terrible habit of reacting out loud to things I read/see online. Could be a consequence of living alone for so long, but it looks kinda crazy and I probably am crazy, but I'd rather not have video documentation of it. I've also had bad past experiences with them. So if you wrote me and I didn't say anything and you mentioned Skype, that was why. Maybe that day I couldn't think of a positive way to word it. Thanks to all the folks who've wrote me. If you wrote asking about chatting I may or may not have responded. It's another thing I've been avoiding for the most part. I like to visit this site and have fun, not be reminded of the guy who pulled me in then acted dickish (not to put you all in the same box). Ha! Dick in a box. Granted that did still happen in some cases. Ugh. Hot male bodies being used for evil. Those things are dangerous to my good judgement at times. So, I'm just saying I wasn't trying to be a jerk and thanks for the interest.